So I guess I’m really sad. This is harder than I thought. Just trying to accept what is happening and not be in denial (which would be the worst thing for me right now). This decision is right, but why does it hurt so much? I don’t know what to do. I just need to get through it and know that one day the moment will come where the pain isn’t there. Why are the best decisions the hardest? I don’t know. I’m just exhibiting some kind of stress response right now where I can feel my adrenaline pumping and my body is heating and my tummy is turning and my nose is runny and it really isn’t pleasant. Just hoping. Sitting here, hoping. For an easier tomorrow.